Exam Nightmares

It seems like this is the second time I am blogging after an exam. But this time there is more to it. I have another one coming in less than 2 weeks. Some might say, that I am scared of exam. I can improvise on that by saying, forget just being scared, i am committed to fear.

Why shouldn't I be. I am a nerve wreck during the last few weeks of an upcoming exam. Waking up in the middle of the nights, dreaming that I had to turn my car around to my home, few minutes before the exam, just because I was not wearing my left sock. Or sometimes the alarm got cushioned under my pillow, because ironically I want to keep my alarm next to my pillow so I can hear the alarm go off in the morning of the exam. I have also dreamt that I was so late for an exam that I went to the school wearing tighties-whities (which I don't even wear), flip flop in one leg and on other leg is my favorite white shoe, skull bandana on the head and my lucky-for exams-metallica-t shirt.

So much for 120 questions that need to be bubbled in. Funny is that during my exams I am usually thinking of what I am going to do after an exam. Like I could play pool with my friends at a new bar near my house. Or sometimes I am thinking of pick-up lines if I meet a nice girl at the bar, who is all charmed with my rebound-board shots.

You see this is what I have to deal with my own self. Most of the people who know me, are well aware that I am never the one to do pick-up lines, but no my brain has to play a switch on me, and that too during the most important exam of that semester - A FINAL exam. An exam for which I sweated my ass for last 2 months. And because I am not the sharpest knife in any drawer, this exam can make or break my career.

All this what I go through in a post exam state, becomes the reason of worry for my next exam. Because I know myself, I am going to be drooling so much in my sleep for a good score, that I will over-sleep everyday before the exam, and when I wake up I will not have the peace of mind to study due to the stress of scoring my dream score which I dreamt last night.

So much so for scores, that I am not too sure anyone of my clients will worry about. Because at the end of the day I know I have strong passion for my field and the willingness to go few xtra miles for the sake of my clients.